7 August 2020 = Covid-19 Blitherings Of A Silly Middle Aged Woman

*** What follows is a pure and absolute angry rant. Some of it may be misguided, unfair, & unsubstantiated. But that is why it is called a “rant” instead of an argument…

Don’t blame the Irish government! Blame all those fucknuts that refuse to wear a mask or wear a mask to hold up their chins. Blame the whanktards that had lock down house parties. Blame those meat processing plants that didn’t adhere to the Covid-19 restrictions and protocols on purpose, thinking that they could get away with it because they were deemed essential. Blame the 120 some odd pubs that did the same over the bank holiday weekend. Blame the slimy butt nuggets that didn’t quarantine for 2 weeks when they came back to Ireland from where ever they were. Blame them! Don’t blame the government. … It’s because of those jerk moulds that the government is doing what they are doing. Localized lock downs, postponing phase 4, etc …

… It’s because of those snot maggots that I might have to close my school down a 2nd time, which it most certainly will not recover from. …

If you’re going to blame the government, blame them for sacrificing our children to this pandemic, rushing them back to school so that their parents are free to go to work … Where? … Who knows? We just know that whatever “job” it is, it’s not the greatest. Because if they have to depend on the public school system to babysit their kids under the guise of education while they toil away it can’t be good … But they need to get back to work at all costs, to save this broken economy so that the grotesquely rich can stay gross. … One of my younger students was right in saying that the government will close down all the schools if there is an inch of snow on the ground, but in the middle of an infectious & deadly pandemic? GET YOUR ASS IN CLASS! … And put on this mask while you’re at it …

… I had another conversation with another one of my students and he brought up a very good point. When your’re poor, you’re poor no matter what the economy is like. You just make do. Can’t afford to buy that cup of coffee from the corner shop, so you go home and make a cup of instant. But there’s a lot more to lose when you’re use to having money to spare. It’s no longer whether you can afford to buy a cup of coffee, it’s not being able to make your car payment, or pay your mortgage, or your Sky TV … It’s as if you are free from the economy when your poor, a slave to it when you have money to spare …

Yeah, I’m on a tirade … I have a paying student from the midlands that won’t be able to come to class for the next 2 weeks because of the localized lock down of the 3 midland counties. I’m concerned about his health & safety. I’m also concerned about the health and safety of all my other students that have come into contact with him. … Do I need to lock down the school and ask all the students to quarantine for the next 2 weeks to be absolutely sure? … I do need to inform everyone … How will that effect the already minimal attendance? … I might have to close down because no one will show up.

… And to answer that nagging question … Yes, I have a student that drives down every weekend from Offly to study Shaolin at my school. He shows up at 9am, meaning he left home at 6:45am on a Saturday morning. He stays until 3 pm sometimes depending on what seminars I’m teaching, he’ll stay until 6pm, and then drives all the way back to Offly. … Dedication at it’s finest … Now because of those snot rot dung heaps, the government locked down his county so he can’t come to class, and I might have to close down the school …

There were 4 deaths and 98 new confirmed cases of Covid-19 here in Ireland …

24 July – 6 August 2020 = Covid-19 Blitherings Of A Silly Middle Aged Woman

Took a long break from writing this blog … Though, I’ve been writing this 1st paragraph over and over for the past few days … I have a lot banging around in my head, most of which is rather dark and dreary. … And it really hurts … But after the last blow out several weeks ago when people got offended, feeling that the way I manage my depression & anxiety was a slight against them … Or victimizing me so that they can swoop in and save me … Or use it as an opportunity to tell me how I’m doing it all wrong … Or to use it as an opportunity to be patronizing & condescending … Or whatever … It all went sideways, and I felt that I was on trial, desperately trying to prove my innocence. Trying to prove that my depression & anxiety wasn’t premeditated, or an attack on their characters. … Needless to say, I’m a rather reticent about writing this blog now. … I just don’t want to go on trial again. I’ve been on the stand so many times, and each time I get a little more hollow, a little more distant … I know that I said I can’t keep my mouth shut, which is true, evident in the very fact that you are reading this. And I will have to be more creative in my writing to lead people astray while still expressing myself in either or both my depressive and/or anxious states. But life has gotten busy and the creative juices just ain’t flowin’ … Along with my apprehension, a 12 day absence has occurred

… I’m back to writing this blog because I need to write. Now to be clear, the “need” to write doesn’t guarantee “good” writing … I need to write because if I don’t, it manifests itself into physical aches, pains and even illnesses. Left unchecked, it comes out fits of frustration and anger which will result in nearly braking my wrists on the edges of a door … Yeah, that happened about a week and a half ago … Not my proudest moment …

… Let me start again … Let me reiterate … again … What it is like in my head… Imagine needing to untangle a ball of very fine and brittle thread the size of a basketball ball while sitting on a very narrow median during a traffic jam at rush hour that was caused by an “I’m not wearing no fuckin’ mask!” protest/riot that broke out just across the street, and the cops are all geared up in riot gear swinging batons and firing rubber bullets & tear gas into the crowd. And because the swarm of locust that just blew in with the massive dust storm is so thick, the cops & the rioters & everyone can’t see who’s who, so they’re just going after everyone! And there you are trying to untangle this ball of fine brittle thread, that keeps breaking, so you tie the broken pieces together just to have another length of it break when you’re trying to untagle it. You’re getting NOWHERE! … FUCK! That’s a tear gas canister that just fell in my lap! And For Fuck SAKE! ARE YOU SHOOTING RUBBER BULLETS INTO MY BACK!? … That’s my head 24/7 …

Writing let’s me pull that tangled ball of thin brittle thread out of my head and see that it’s not the size of a basketball, it’s only the size of a tennis ball. And it’s not brittle, I’m just pulling to hard. When it’s out of my head I can be sarcastic & cavalier about it, where I can’t be that creative when I’m trying to dodge a swinging baton & swarming locust…

I’m sure that a lot you are hurt by me writing this blog in this way because instead of confiding in you, I’m writing and posting it for the world to read. … I actually don’t have much in the way of kind words to say about this, so maybe until I do, I should avoid commenting on it. … But it looks like I am going to anyway … You do not own my confidence … If I am not confiding in you about my troubles, it means you’ve cut me to the quick one too many times, by not listening, forcing unsolicited advice, being dismissive, scolding me, or a variety of other unsavory acts … It takes a rare sort to do nothing but listen and make no comment or judgement. Writing this blog is the closets I get to that. The very act of reading this, means I have their attention. Very rarely are there any comments. If there are it’s helpful hints on the day to day. If there are any judgements, I don’t know about them, because they keep it to themselves and I don’t give a rats left testicle if they gossip about it to their “friends”. … Or it may simply be that I don’t want to bother you with it, or impose on your time. … So there, another reason why I write about these dark apparitions that fester and rot in my head… And it’s quick and easy … And it’s like pressure release valve … And it’s like whatever other analogy you can come up with.

…Here’s another reason why I write all these things out and post them … They’re drafts … 1st draft, 2nd draft … I tend to write about the same things over and over again. Each time I write about whatever, I can explain it just a little bit better. Maybe, I can put a different perspective on it, or come back and completely refute an earlier statement. … Untangling that ball of thread … People don’t think that learning how to explain the way you think & feel takes practice. So yeah, this blog is like a dress rehearsal …

… What other reasons do I have? … What other analogies do I have? …

Well, for now let me finish up this part by reiterating what I have said in earlier posts … My depression & anxiety is not a premeditated attack on you. I did not become depressed & anxious on purpose. I have had depression & anxiety long before any of you came into the picture. I have survived my depression & anxiety for over 40 years now, so please trust that I might know something about how it works for me. I feel that I have been very open about it, and even have gone as far as coaching you all in what I need from you. Please understand & respect that. …

Much of what’s bouncing around in my head these past 12 days would probably be better put in it’s own separate blog posts. Or I’ll just catch up with them in this string of blog posts. So, I think I’ll leave it at that and start anew tomorrow …

There were 5 deaths
and 69 new confirmed cases of Covid-19 here in Ireland …

… Now here’s a stickler for me … new cases are on the rise. We were doing so good, but people are being fucknuts and not observing the protocols and now we’re headed for a 2nd wave and possibly another lockdown …

22 And 23 July 2020 = Covid-19 Blitherings Of A Silly Middle Aged Woman

I can’t even begin to tell you how badly my legs and knees hurt last night … After classes I laid down on the futon whimpering like a child. Whimpering like I did so many decades ago when I was a kid. … It was for me a regular run of the mill sorta day, apart from feeling a little more animated. Even though there were only 5 people in class last night, it was a fun class to teach. A couple of my students were themselves more animated than usual so we all had a great time working hard and being goofy. …

There is a movie called “Tales From Earthsea” that I’ve been trying to watch for a while now. But everytime I try it’s late at night and I end up falling asleep somewhere in the middle of it. I feel bad because the implication is that I fell asleep because it’s boring. It’s just timing, I’m so tired that I would fall asleep during a 5 alarm fire. I tried to watch it again last night and again I fell asleep somewhere in the middle … I was hoping that the thought of seeing dragons and why they are in the movie would keep me awake, but no … I fell asleep… But then I would wake up and back track the movie, watch a little more and fall asleep… I think after about the 15th attempt I just closed the computer and went to sleep on the futon, because I still couldn’t move my legs…

It was an interesting morning in a way. I took Sprite out for her morning walk/run/fetch and and I ran into Christian and his beautiful long haired, black German shepherd. We started talking while I flung the ball for Sprite. Sprite promptly loses the ball and doesn’t come back with it. Usually I would go searching for it, but I was talking about philosophy and religion and I didn’t want to break up the conversation. We talked for a good long while, not just about philosophy and religion, but about a whole range of old classical music like baroque, romantic, renaissance, etc… music and their famous composers. … I didn’t realize the J.S. Bach had 3 Sons that were prominent composers themselves. I thought there was just the one … Finally I found another person who doesn’t like Mozart. As I’ve said before, I understand that he was a genius, but that doesn’t mean that I have to like his music. It’s been a good long time since I was able to have intelligent conversation at length.

… Now a bunch of you are going ape shit over what I just wrote, because you think that I’m saying that you’re stupid ‘er something. That the conversations we’ve had recently weren’t “intelligent” enough and that I didn’t enjoy them … What I have to say to that is; Stop it! Please just Stop! … I feel like it would be a fallacious exercise if I have to explain it. No matter what I say or how I say it someone will be offended. So I implore you all to consider the trouble times that we all are facing and to explore the possibilities that seemingly innocuous conversations such as gastric intestinal recurrences, or the capriciousness of our pileous quadruped campions are just as important and necessary as the touted “intelligent conversation”.

… OK back to the morning… So, while Christian and I were talking about the Bad Boys Of Baroque, Sprite and Luna got bore and started chewing on either end of a large fallen branch that we were standing near. It was classic! I honestly wished that I can my phone with me so that I can take a picture or a video, but then realized that some things are best experienced in the moment. … Ah! It was cuteness overload! Really it was!

It was a really nice day, so I did Sweet Shag All … Well, I did go to Con’s to buy our fruit and veg for the week … but that’s it. Took Sprite out for her afternoon walk at The Lough. It was really mellow there. I was expecting Pier 31 again like back during the June bank holiday. Maybe, everyone was sufficiently sunburnt and the whole lounging at The Lough lost it’s Springtime novelty appeal…

… Hey! I finished watching “Tales From Earthsea”! I was watching it while I’ve been writing this!… Not bad, I liked it. Still “Spirit Away” and “Princess Mononoke” are my favourites from the Ghilbi Studios,… or is it Studio Ghilbi? …

Well, I have about an hour until I take Sprite out for her evening walk/run/fetch… So, I might come back and write more afterward …

22 July 2020 There was 1 death
and 17 new confirmed cases of Covid-19 here in Ireland…

… Nothing more to report really. Took Sprite out for her evening walk. She has an obsession of sorts with soccer balls in motion. Once they’ve stopped and are just sitting there, she has no interest. I took her to our usual Deerpark to run her down with the fling it tennis ball, but there were 2 groups of young people kicking soccer balls around. I thought I’d take a chance and let her off her leash/lead so that we can fling the ball. I was fine for the 1st 3 flings and then off she went chasing the soccer balls between the 2 groups. … There was no catching her … At least one of guys realized that it was me that was trying to catch her, picked up the ball so that I can get her back on the lead.

We went down to a different field/pitch/park to fling the ball. After she was sufficiently tired, we went back to the 1st park/pitch/field and flung the ball a bit more until she was so tired that she just laid down next to the ball, instead of bringing it back … Mind you, this does not mean that she is ready to go home. … You wonder if she hadn’t studied Martin Luther King Jr. and Civil Disobedience… I put the lead on her and tell her that it’s time to go home. She’ll walk about 6 feet and then just lay down in her peaceful protest. I let her lay there for a few minutes and then give a tug on the lead and again tell her it’s time to go home. She gets up, walks 6ft and plops down. … Rinse & Repeat … Tonight she was particularly ornery and we had to go through this process about 8x before I got her out of the park! … I can’t really get angry, because it’s rather clever. … I can’t seem to get angry over clever …

OK… I’m finishing up here. Ricky and I are going to watch a couple of episodes of “The Sinner” on Netflix…

Today, there were 9 deaths
and 7 new confirm cases of Covid-19 here in Ireland…

21 July 2020 = Blitherings Of A Silly Middle Aged Woman

Sprite’s finally settled from her late night crazies. … I don’t like her when she is like this. I don’t tolerate unruly dogs, especially my own. … *sigh* … Give me a moment to take a few deep breaths …

We’ve had her for 2 months today! So it was good timing when her giant snake and chew bones finally came in. It was suppose to be her on the 1 July. But the package got damaged or lost. Zooplus was very good to offer me a refund, but Sprite needed another toy to mad dog. She’s getting another long toy to mad dog soon from one of my Best Buddies back in the States. Sprite will soon be able to have a mad dog toy in every room and some to rotate in and out so that she doesn’t get bored with one and then decide to chew or mad dog our shoes and pillows. She is a good dog for the most part. As Ricky says, about 95% of the time. And that is true, but it’s that last 5% that ruins everything and shoots my anxiety through the roof.

I was hoping that she would be much further along by now. I know that the experts say that it can take months even years for a dog to feel safe around other people Yes, I need to be patient. But patience requires time, and I don’t feel like I have much time. I need to get her to where we can have friends come over and check on her, or for her to go and stay the night or 3 at a friends house while we are away. I need to do this soon, because as the lock down restrictions ease, there’s going to be more family do’s, more significant birthdays and other ceremonies that will take me and Ricky away for several hours or even days. … How am I going to get her to that point when I can’t even get her to stop jumping on Ricky?

Sprite came to the school with me for about 2 hours through practice hour and the first half of black belt class, before Ricky dropped by to pick her up. I only had 1 black belt in class today. Sprite managed enough courage to take a treat from his hand. Otherwise she kept pacing back and forth, about 3ft in front of him. When I got class started Sprite took my spot in front of the class and just started at him while he was doing his forms. It was curiously entertaining …

… Went into town today. It was crowded … Did see a lot of people wearing masks, but not everyone. I saw big bright signs all saying that wearing masks are mandatory in whatever shop. But when you went in, not everyone was. … I’m kinda giving up. I was noticing that I was getting angry, but really, how is other people not wearing masks my problem? I don’t have the power to fix it. I will wear my mask and I will social distance. I will use the anti-bacterial hand sanitizer, even though Covid-19 is a virus, because it makes everyone feel better. But I swear if anyone without a mask comes to close to me inside a shop that they are required and says anything to me, I am going to sue them for assault. Being racially ambiguous, I’m not afraid to pull out the yellow card and scream racist. … Actually, that would make me part of the problem … I will settle on wearing the mask and keeping a minimum of 2 metres from everyone! And whenever possible, just isolate…

… My legs and knees ached so much more today than usual… Actually I don’t remember a time where my legs didn’t hurt. I remember as a kid whimpering at 3am because I couldn’t sleep. My legs twitched and ached so much. I think I was 7 years old when I first experienced Ben-Gay … There wasn’t a children’s variety back then, it was pure icey fire that my Father who was fed up with my whimpering got up and smothered my legs with it. Oh I cried! The sting hurt more than the pain itself! … Then it all went away and I fell asleep … I went to Hell that night, and I made it back!

Nobody died today because of Covid-19,
but the number of new confirmed cases jumped to 36!

20 July 2020 = Covid-19 Blitherings Of A Silly Middle Aged Woman

I still don’t have enough time to do anything … 3 months of actual lock down and I was out and about 10x more than usual, couldn’t find time to do anything. Probably because I was sleeping in until 11 am and escaping into whatever I was binge watching on Netflix from 10 pm onwards. Sprite comes along 2 months ago, and finally I start dragging my oatmeal butt out of bed before 8 am to take her out for her morning walk/run/fetch, and I’m back before 9 am. An extra 2 hours to my day now! Nope! Still couldn’t find the time. … What in Hell’s half acre am I doing all day that I can’t find time to get my to do list done!? … Maybe, I’m phasing in and out of different universes losing hours in this one? … Simple things like posting videos or notes, emailing this person or that, do the freakin’ laundry, sweep the floor … gee whiz … when was the last time the bathroom was cleaned? And OH! Don’t talk to me about my toe nails … I use to pride myself on being organized, but lately … bleh …

I was told by many that I expect to do too much in one day. I even considered that myself. But I feel that if I was just a bit more organized I would have it all done! … I know, I know … There’s loads and loads of studies all done about it and I probably fall into some statistic or other. … I know that I need to have down time … And that’s where it catches me … They say your are suppose to have a balance , but what is the balance? It’s not 50/50! Then they say you have to find a good balance. Well, damnit. Isn’t that just a waste of time! Can’t the all powerful “They” give me a starting point to tweek?

… So today … I was up by 8 am out and back with Sprite by 9am. Fed and brushed Sprite … Her adult coat is coming in so nicely! I’m rather proud of myself for making up a good diet for her and keeping her on it! All the vets, and all that I’ve read say that dogs & cats shouldn’t shed as much as we may think. Shedding a lot is a sign of a poor diet. Once I got her puppy down brushed out of her, Sprite doesn’t shed much at all, esp in these past couple of weeks. Her coat is getting thick and a bit curly. So shiny and even silky. I can’t stop petting her sometimes! I’m happy too that she doesn’t have much of a smell off her either! … OK after I took care of Sprite, I watered “the garden”, and transferred some veggies to bigger pots. Managed to save an indoor ivy that Ricky had for a long time that we thought was completely dead 6 months ago. We had just put the pot aside and forgot about it. But in looking for bigger pots to put the other veggies in I notice a small bit of ivy growing from the wreckage. So I put that in a smaller pot and hopefully we can bring it back to it’s former glory. Kinda like Groot in Guardians Of The Galaxy. … I printed out Washee’s 2nd Black Requirement Sheets … I made and posted the advert for Yueh Fei 18 Con’t Postures & 8 Brocade seminar on social media & updated the website. I worked out payments with a student for that seminar. … Let’s see … I went and got groceries at both Lidle and Super Valu …

OMG! Lidle & Super Valu! What the HELL! With the new restrictions we’re suppose to be wearing face masks in all retail shops incl. grocery stores! But nope, people were being Americans! … OK … I’m being a bit unfair. There is a lot of confusion over the masks and how it is going to be enforced. And even during the peak of the lock down, we weren’t required to wear masks as long as we were socially distancing at 2 metres or more. So why now? Well, because were nearly out of lock down and more and more people are out and about and are more likely to be exposed. Simple. Anyway, there were no more face mask wearing than there was before the mandate. … I wore my homemade mask. The funny thing was that people seemed to know when I was smiling at the them! It’s neat to know that after 49 years, I know how to smile with my eyes!

On the way home I saw fire trucks and hoses in the street across from our house. Everyone on the street was out watching all the commotion. It turns out that a man was smoking out in his shed and it caught fire! Thank goodness no one was hurt!

Got home, unpacked the groceries, talked to Ricky a bit, went outside and sat in the sun for a little while, came back in played some GO. Responded to some texts and got confirmation on the seminar this Sunday. Ate some left over Chinese take away that dripped on my shirt. … Did a load of laundry … Wrote this post …

Nobody died today because of Covid-19 and only 6 new confirmed cases. There’s now a total of 1,753 deaths
and 25,766 confirmed cases here in Ireland.

19 July 2020 = Covid-19 Blitherings Of A Silly Middle Aged Woman

If I only wrote this post 10 min earlier, it would be a very different post …

It stupid. When your as messed up and broken as I am. Riddled with anxiety and depression at THE SAME PHUCIN’ time, how everything can take an immediate about face. …

It wasn’t like it was a great day full of wonder and hope, but it was and easy enough day. Easy enough to where a bit of yourself, a bit of what you’re like, comes out in what is meant to be a bit of snarky playfulness… But it’s taken all out of context and now I just don’t want to any more …

Nobody died today from Covid-19,
and there were 10 new confirmed cases here in Ireland.

17 July 2020 = Covid-19 Blitherings Of A Silly Middle Aged Woman

I wasted today …

I needed to change some things on the schools website. I decided to take away the 6 month and 1 year memberships all in one go. I’m not optimistic at all that my school will last more than a year and I don’t want to get caught out paying rent on a space when I only have a few students that are on membership. I know, it’s dismal, and I hope it doesn’t come to that. I was always told to plan for the worst and hope for the best. Cancelling my 6 & 1 year memberships is planning for the worst. Fingers crossed that in a years time, I can bring them back because the school will be overflowing with students! So I had to change the website to reflect that. In doing so, I decided to wander on to some of the other pages to remind myself what they looked like and if I needed to change anything there. …

OMGOODNESS! The “Curriculum” page was absolutely APPALLING! I am absolutely gutted! To think that I may have turned away new perspective students because of that page! Did I have my head that far up my arse that I didn’t even think to check before now! It had all the old and wrong information on it back from when my dickweed exe was managing the site! I’m still … ugh … So I sat down and muddled through a re write of the page. After 2 hours of writing, and re writing, and re writing and re writing to get something that made some sense, just to have it all disappear! … And I have absolutely no idea what I did to delete the whole thing…

Too frustrated and angry, I had to just leave it alone for awhile. … I made a cup of coffee … No, not ready … Took Sprite out for a walk at Tory Top, where she was accosted by a gang of kids! I was proud of her! Sprite was still nervous, but we all sat down on the sidewalk while the kids took turns petting and scratching her. … Still not ready to attack the web page when we got home so I took a long shower … No, still not ready, ended up putzin’ on facebook, playing GO and messaging people on What’s App… Finally around 6pm, I hunkered down and got the re write of the curriculum page done. It’s not the best but it’s better than what was there.

You know, I have “friends” on Facebook that still think that Covid-19 is a hoax and that wearing face mask violates their civil liberties. They still believe this after the United States reported 75,600 new confirmed cases of Covid-19 in 1 day! For my Irish buddies, that would be the like of Ireland having 1,300 new confirmed cases in one day. I think the highest we had here in Ireland was around 760? At the peak of this pandemic? 75,600 new confirmed cases … that’s nearly 3x the total number of all the confirmed cases here in Ireland!

… Really I should just “unfriend” them … But I have this morbid curiosity … What are they going to come up with next? …

There were 3 deaths and 34 new confirmed cases of Covid-19 today. There is now a total of 1,752 deaths
and 25,730 confirmed cases here in Ireland.

11-15 July 2020 = Covid-19 Blitherings Of A Silly Middle Aged Woman

***Sorry Folks! For some reason WordPress is posting this blog as one big long paragraph… Soooooo I bolded the 1st sentence in each intended paragraph*** I’m having a hard time keeping up with this blog these past few days. … I’ve been feeling down and anxious, but after the back lash from a month ago, I’m rather reticent … I guess I’m spiraling down one side and up the other. … All in my head of course. I suspect that it will all come exploding out in grand fashion a couple of weeks, where I will once again have to take the stand in defense of my own depression and anxiety. … I will also have to go through the gauntlet of people telling me how I’m doing it all wrong … Maybe if I read a lot of “depression poetry” they will give me a few hints on how to be depressed properly. … I wonder if there is any “anxiety poetry” … I wouldn’t want to neglect one in favour of the other! Especially since they are teaming up to suck my brain through my arse … Or my arse through my brain … Or maybe if I can get my head out of my own arse, I’ll figure it out … … I can’t make any sense of the way so many people are in regards to Covid-19 … There is no sense … How can the UK and the US justify any of what they are doing, or rather not doing … How is it that so many people in the US still believe that this is a hoax? How is it that so many people in the UK feel that they can travel where ever they want and not promote the spread of the virus, especially with the numbers are rising! The same goes in the US. Is it their imperialistic assholiness? Their inflated sense of entitlement? … There always been a mild anti-British sentiment here in Ireland, but recently, and with massive force, there’s a rising anti-American sentiment going around. … It’s not because of Trump either! It’s those few fuck nut Americans that think they have a right to vacation in Ireland simply just because they are Americans. Being that there are flight restrictions from the US and a 2 week quarantine for when/if they arrive, they’ll fly to the UK – Belfast and then drive down into the Republic Of Ireland and demand that the tour companies accommodate them. Not only are they coming from a highly infected area, but they are traveling though another highly infected area, before coming here. … I know one woman who does small bus tour of historical sites in Kerry& West Cork. She has refused service to 3 groups of Americans and 2 groupsfrom the UK in the last 3 weeks, because they didn’t go through quarantine. She knew they hadn’t, because of course, they freakin’ bragged about how they got away with it … The audacity of those slime buckets to think that we are so desperate and American loving that we’d take your “tourist dollars” over our own health and safety… The number of new confirm cases are on the rise … I’m disappointed in the Irish government … Sure they’ve done well for the most part in flattening the curve, putting protocols, restrictions, emergency payments, etc… But they’re throwing it all away! All the hard work they and the people of Ireland have done and are doing, by allowing flights from places like Dallas & London. Then leaving it to “you’re on your honour” to quarantine … They’re not enforcing it … They don’t want to offend the US or UK … Ireland needs to grow a backbone … I’ve said this before, it seems as though we’ve forgotten about Brexit and the back stop. Again, with the way the UK has/is handling this pandemic, Ireland should consider letting the UK reinstate the hard boarder! The sooner, the better! … … OK … There’s my rant … Well, part of it. If I keep going, I’m sure to set off WW III … I know that it’s only a few Americans, an small number. What amazes me, is either my propensity, or theirs, for us to run into each other and lock horns! … My anger and shortsightedness is due to some selfish reasons, I admit. It all revolves around the school. If I get sick, the school closes. If any of my students gets sick, the school will close down. If the numbers of new confirmed cases keep rising and we go into another lock down, the school closes. If we don’t eradicate the virus by behaving properly, and social distancing, limited number of people indoors or in groups, face masks, etc… become the status quo, the school cannot maintain itself and it will closes down. If the school closes down, I have no means to pay my bills and take care of myself, Ricky and Sprite. I will be at the mercy of Social Welfare of whether I can get a dubious jobseekers allowance. That wouldn’t cover all our basic costs. … If it came down to that … If I had to go back to that struggle again … Goodness, I’m sure I won’t survive it this time … … And now, this ambiguous requirement that you are required to wear a face mask in indoor settings … What indoor settings are they talking about? They mention shops … OK … But what about gyms? Sports clubs? Swimming pools? Hotels? Peoples homes? Am I going to have to ask my students to wear a face mask during class? While they are doing their breathing and meditation  …. Oh goodness … Will I have to close the school down again? I’m going to wreck my head over this … OK, let’s back track. My last post was on the 10th of July. The 11th was Saturday. Well, nothing major happened. I got through classes and hung out for a while until it was 8am in Boise when I zoomed with my good friend Aaron, from the school to see if the mobile data on my phone had a strong enough signal to support it! And it did! This will open up a lot of options for me and the school! For example, Grandmaster Thé is planning on having a seminar in Boise in mid August. He’s teaching the 3rd & 4th roads of Cotton Fist! I desperately want to learn them! I’ve seen the roads 1 & 2 last year! Well, considering the circumstances with Covid-19 and flight restrictions, with GMT permission, I hope I can “zoom” in and learn the forms from here in Ireland! Also, if I had a few other students who would like to take the seminar, we might be able to arrange that as well! It’s not just GMT seminars abroad, it’s an option that’s available for me to teach my own seminars to people who cannot attend for reasons beyond their control. … For the school to survive, I have to find ways for it to evolve and adapt, which means I may have to bring more of the school on-line… Honestly, I don’t really remember what I did after I got home from classes on Saturday. I think all I did was plop down on the futon. I think I watched the 2nd Season of Derry Girls on Netflix, but was so wrecked I kept falling asleep. … Ahhhhh yes! At around 8ish pm Ricky and I took Sprite out to Deerpark for her evening walk/run. I had planned to throw the ball for her with that contraption. I think it’s called a “fling it”? Turns out I didn’t have too. The beagle puppy, Cookie, was there and the 2 of them played. Then just when it seemed they were all tuckered out, Mavies, a boxer and possible dogo argentino cross comes darting in! Now all 3 of them are playing, wrestling & running for a good 40 min or so! As I said before, Sprite can run nearly as fast as a greyhound, but she was so gentle and caring with the puppy only running fast enough to just stay ahead of the pup. Mavies was doing really well with puppy too. Mavies would lie down in the grass and let Cookie jump on her. I’m sure Mavies and Cookie slept well! Because Sprite sure did! Sunday 12 July was all about Sprite. I had arranged a couple weeks back to bring Sprite over to Ricky’s Brother’s house to help get her acclimated to the new environment. In a couple weeks time there’s going to be a huge family & friends do with kids and bouncy castles. They said that we can bring Sprite, because there’ll be other dogs there as well, but I was still wary. Sprite is still very nervous around strangers and a house full of them might do her in. So yes, I imposed and asked if we can bring her over for a few hours. They were so good and turned the imposition into a small birthday celebration for Ricky and his Niece! I made salsa and some my chocolate chip cookies to bring over. So that’s the afternoon done. I have to say that I was quite anxious. I imagined having to force Sprite in the door of the house and then her racing to some far corner of their back garden, huddled and scared. … To my surprise … I’m still amazed … It was quite the opposite … Sprite walked into their house like she owned it! Went right up to Ricky’s Brother and Niece tail a waggin’ as if they’ve know each other for ages! She followed everyone around, inside and outside! Every now and again when she wanted a break she went to a corner of the back garden that was in plain sight and just laid down for awhile. Again, I’m still dumbfounded. I just hope in  a couple of weeks when there’s more people and kids that she’s still brave… Monday 13 July, I was not feeling well. It wasn’t the virus. I started feeling quizzy when I was at Ricky’s Brother house, there toward the end. When we got home, I went straight to bed. I can’t remember the last time I ever went to bed by 10pm! Ricky was very good and took Sprite out for her morning walk so that I can sleep in. I was in bed until 11:30am! I didn’t eat much, just a couple of hard boiled eggs and a few rye crackers. I just constantly felt that something was going to come out from one end or another. I did manage to take Sprite out for her afternoon walk, but it wasn’t long before I felt like I needed to be back home near the toilet. I spent the rest of the day and night layed out on the futon. I revisited the 4th season of Sherlock and fell asleep… Tuesday 14 July I woke up on the futon at 6:30 am needing to visit the toilet. It wasn’t pleasant. I decided to cancel my morning  kung fu class and went back to sleep until 8:30am. 8:30 am is Sprites limit. She kept punching me in the ear with her wet nose until I said “FINE!” I’ll get up and take her out for her morning walk. I was still quizzy but managed to pull it together. Later I went into town to pick up some meats and oat milk, came home and took a nap before class. … Wednesday 15 July … Well, you got an ear full of it already at the beginning of this very long post … Apart from my earlier rant, Ricky was again being very good and took Sprite out for her morning walk so that I can get a couple of hours more of sleep. I’m still not 100% over the quizziness. I went and taught my morning tai chi & qi gong class. Only 2 people, but it was enjoyable none the less AND one of them brought me a huge chunk of Christmas cake! Long story for another post, but I LOVE CHRISTMAS CAKE! After class, still quizzy but as bad as Monday or Tuesday, I basically putz’d around the house. I sat out in the back garden in my chair cutting split ends off my hair for a bit more than an hour. At about 4:30pm I packed up and went to the school. Cleaned the floors and toilets, responded to some texts, then taught beginners belt. Then I came home, played with Sprite, had a little food, talked with Ricky about our day and started writing this …

There were 2 deaths today, and 14 new confirmed cases of Covid-19. That’s down from 34 new cases yesterday. There is now a total of 1,748 deaths in Ireland and 25,683 confirmed cases.

10 July 2020 = Covid-19 Blitherings Of A Silly Middle Aged Woman

I shouldn’t have listened to the news …

My school will not survive another lock down. It may not even survive the current one. For me to learn any new material, or for my black belts to test, or for myself to test, someone will have to travel to or from the US. … I know that we’ve only been back to classes a week now. But only 12 students have returned, and no word from the rest … A school with only 12 students that all have current memberships until the end of the year is just not sustainable … I have not had a sincere inquiry about classes since January… My Covid-19 Emergency Payments runs out in 1 month …

The virus is running rampant in the US, the racism, the riots … Sure there are places in the US that are “quiet” like Boise, Idaho, but the road to get there is a near impossible gauntlet. It’s not worth the risk. … The UK … ugh … the uk … We share a border with them, and now, even though their numbers are still high they are opening up international travel. So someone can come into the Republic Of Ireland which have stricter travel protocols, via Northern Ireland undermining all the efforts the ROI.

The ROI isn’t without blame… People are being stupid. The Government said FINE! We’ll let the pubs and restaurants open, just follow a few guidelines. NOPE! Fuck NO! People ignored the protocols and gathered in large groups outside the pubs with no social distancing. For the past 3 days the number of new confirmed cases are on the rise not just with old people, but in children as well! To semi quote a friend of mine ” DEAD PEOPLE DON’T DRINK!” … Actually you can say that about all the restrictions that people are complaining about or not complying with. “DEAD PEOPLE DON’T TRAVEL!” “DEAD PEOPLE DON’T EAT!” “DEAD PEOPLE DON’T GET THEIR HAIR DYED AND STYLED!” “DEAD PEOPLE DON’T GO TO WORK!” “DEAD PEOPLE DON’T PROVIDE FOR THEIR LIVING FAMILIES!” …”Dead people don’t … fill in the blank with whatever the fuck you want …

… We’re headed for another shut down … My school won’t/can’t survive … I won’t be able to travel or bring people here to expand my art, or school for that matter. … The money, … there is none … There’s no place to go … I’m here in a country where everyone is becoming more and more like horrible entitled Americans. … And for any of you who might be offended by that last comment… If you are not a horrible entitled American or aspiring to be one, then I’m not talking about you!

… I can’t watch or listen to the news anymore …

1 death and 25 new confirmed cases today in Ireland …

7 July 2020 = Covid-19 Blitherings Of A Silly Middle Aged Woman

Did you ever have that feeling that a particular date is suppose to have some significance? Like it’s someone you know’s birthday, or some anniversary that your forgetting … The 7 of July is like that for me, along with a few other dates as well, like the 5 of October or any date in August…

Today was another boring day … I don’t mind boring days. Sure, nothing great happens, but nothing goes wrong either…

No one showed up for my morning kung fu class. I was OK with that, because my asthma is being cranky today, and my joints & muscles ached … According to TCM, that’s because I have excess dampness … Weak spleen & kidney yin … Part of that was caused by my indulgence of a bit, a tiny bit of grated cheese with my Fry Bread Taco … Oh! And the Fry Bread too …

Spent the afternoon writing emails and tying up lose ends. Sprite chew bones and giant snake still hasn’t arrived, so I webchatted with a rep from the delivery service. Apparently the label was damaged and they didn’t know where to send it. Now they’re going to check the packages manually and see if they find it. … Called Country Clean to get a quote on recycling and rubbish bins, and pick up. I registered yesterday and someone was suppose to get back to me within 24 hours, but that didn’t happen, so I called them. Turns out that they are having trouble with their internet service and computers. … Took Sprite for her afternoon walk at Tory Top, but no dogs there that were wanting to run and play. Poor Sprite looked like that lonely kid out on the playground all by themselves. … I tried to watch an episode of Star Treck Voyager – The Void, before my evening classes, but kept falling asleep … Honestly, I doubt that I missed much. It was an obvious story line…

I was apprehensive about classes. Being achy and hard of breath, but it worked out OK and we got a lot of work done covering a fair amount of material. I even got a bit of a compliment. One of my most inquisitive students said after tai chi, that there was only 2 things he missed during the lock down – the library and my tai chi class.

… I talked for about 45min after class with a couple of my students about American tourist in Ireland an Europe. This was stemming from how the EU was restricting or banning US Americans from traveling to Europe, and how we’ve seen on social media how a certain number of Americans feel that if they throw a lot of tourism dollars EU way, that they will take the money and let Americans in. … There’s too many things wrong with this to even entertain the idea of discussing it … You know, this virus isn’t going to go away just because you want and can spend money to travel. Seriously, what do these Americans think Europeans are like? That they would throw away the health and safety of their people for a few bob to let them into Europe? … Not to mention the audacity! The US banned people traveling from Europe from entering the US at the beginning of all this when the numbers were high here in Europe. OK, fine. Makes sense. But now that the numbers are skyrocketing in the US, these Americans feel it’s their right to vacation in Europe? … eh … Not worth it …

I’m half way through Season 7 of Start Trek Voyager. With any luck … any good luck, I’ll be done with it by early next week …

There was 1 death today
and 24 new confirmed cases of Covid-19 here in Ireland.

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